Kicked Out
I was kicked out of my house on Sunday. Because me and my mom had an argument, because I didn't wash the dishes, because I don't go to church, and because I haven't been able to find a job.
So Tom's family invited me to stay with them for the rest of break. It was fun because his family was nice to me but he ignored me basically the whole time and when he wasn't ignoring me he was slapping/kicking/hitting/throwing thigns at me or making fun of me or being mean to me. He never understands anything and never treats me nice or comforts me when I am upset about something. Or if he does comfort me he will expect something in return. For example one night I was upset and crying and he laid with me and talked to me and stuff and then as soon as I was feeling a little better he wanted a blow job and when I said I didn't want to right then he was like "Ugh I just wasted my time when I could have been doing homework".
Sometimes I just want to break up with him and never talk to him again but I love him so much that I can't do it. I don't even know why I love him so much cause he is rude and snappy and mean to me most of the time. I am also scared that I will never be able to meet another guy. And I won't have any other friends to hang out with if we broke up. The good should outweigh the bad but there are so few good times now.
He is a sexist and always acts superior to me in everything. I have only played on Play Station 2 like three times in my life. So I went to Tom's house and played this game with him and it was my first time playing and he had been playing the game for years and I beat him three times and he beat me five times. (MY first time playing) and he gets so obnoxious like the whole afternoon rubbing it in my face and calling me a loser and stuff. Then me and him were playing a game together where we were supposed to work as a team to kill as many enemies as possible. Well I was about to kill some guy and he was mad because I killed more people than him so he killed me and ended the whole thing. He is such a five year old.
I didn't start this blog to complain about Tom but I feel like many of the feelings/things I am experiencing right now are directly related to the way he treats me most of the time. Not saying he doesn't treat me nicely sometimes because he does. I just feel like he is hurting my feelings more than helping me feel better.
I am so upset about the whole family thing. Nobody in my family cared. Not even my five year old brother Michael or my eight year old sister Margaret. No one. I just got a hug and then shoved out the door basically. Before I felt like the only people I had to support me through the hard time I am going through was my family and Tom. Now I know my family doesn't give a shit what happens to me and I really feel like Tom doesn't either. I have no one who cares about me or anything.
I just feel so depressed and lonely all the time.
So Tom's family invited me to stay with them for the rest of break. It was fun because his family was nice to me but he ignored me basically the whole time and when he wasn't ignoring me he was slapping/kicking/hitting/throwing thigns at me or making fun of me or being mean to me. He never understands anything and never treats me nice or comforts me when I am upset about something. Or if he does comfort me he will expect something in return. For example one night I was upset and crying and he laid with me and talked to me and stuff and then as soon as I was feeling a little better he wanted a blow job and when I said I didn't want to right then he was like "Ugh I just wasted my time when I could have been doing homework".
Sometimes I just want to break up with him and never talk to him again but I love him so much that I can't do it. I don't even know why I love him so much cause he is rude and snappy and mean to me most of the time. I am also scared that I will never be able to meet another guy. And I won't have any other friends to hang out with if we broke up. The good should outweigh the bad but there are so few good times now.
He is a sexist and always acts superior to me in everything. I have only played on Play Station 2 like three times in my life. So I went to Tom's house and played this game with him and it was my first time playing and he had been playing the game for years and I beat him three times and he beat me five times. (MY first time playing) and he gets so obnoxious like the whole afternoon rubbing it in my face and calling me a loser and stuff. Then me and him were playing a game together where we were supposed to work as a team to kill as many enemies as possible. Well I was about to kill some guy and he was mad because I killed more people than him so he killed me and ended the whole thing. He is such a five year old.
I didn't start this blog to complain about Tom but I feel like many of the feelings/things I am experiencing right now are directly related to the way he treats me most of the time. Not saying he doesn't treat me nicely sometimes because he does. I just feel like he is hurting my feelings more than helping me feel better.
I am so upset about the whole family thing. Nobody in my family cared. Not even my five year old brother Michael or my eight year old sister Margaret. No one. I just got a hug and then shoved out the door basically. Before I felt like the only people I had to support me through the hard time I am going through was my family and Tom. Now I know my family doesn't give a shit what happens to me and I really feel like Tom doesn't either. I have no one who cares about me or anything.
I just feel so depressed and lonely all the time.
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